Mimi seems to think that I hate my job, as I don’t want to be here. Last night as I was going to bed Mimi saw my face and guessed that I was thinking that I didn’t want to come into work today. That was true, it was exactly what I was thinking.
Then he says “If you are not happy with your job leave”. I tried to explain to him that it has nothing to do with my job, I don’t mind the travel (I travel about 2.5 hours each day). I like the people that I’m working with and I do get quite a bit of job satisfaction.
BUT, in the back of my mind I feel as though I SHOULD NOT be there anymore, I should be at home with my baby. But I couldn’t say that to Mimi. What I did say was that I really needed a holiday, time away from work. It has been over 2 years since I’ve actually had more than 2 days off work, not related to illness or during the weeks off after my many miscarriages.
Mimi and I are going on holidays soon, first week in August and it is so long over due that I still find myself not motivated to go into work. Just because I don’t want to be here right now, does that mean that I hate my job?